Dive In -- Sink or Swim

It's been quite a challenge getting myself clearheaded and focused at work. I have a tendancy to think I am either doing something wrong overall and/or have something wrong with me because of this. I heard a great lyric this morning as I turned the radio on. I'm going to try it on (I already wrote it on a sticky note and put it up at work). "Dive In---Sink or Swim"

I think I've been so afraid of failing I haven't been able to be as effective in my work. How annoying! Well, this quote makes me feel a bit of energy that moves me towards action. Like taking on my role at work and really working up and working the plan for volunteer recruitment and training. I want this year to be more about this.... I want to dive into the things I am committed to already and dive into my desires and wishes for the year as well. That's the only way to really live!! I have such a strong practical side to me to temper my wishes enough that I won't drown... just sink a little maybe. I want to go forward stronger in my job, in my creative endeavors, in my videography and editing... with my writing. And even, gulp... with a relationship with a good man.

It's a challenge at times to stay afloat and remember to give things my all with a good attitude but it's a must in order to be more fulfilled and at peace with myself. We'll see what 2005 brings~!